|2021/08/13 13:13, Zintilden: ||edited 2x |
|Dragging this back to a thread instead of consuming RR since its a 'BFD' -again-.
1st thing I want to say is thx for the feedback - I appreciate hearing it all - the good, the bad, the ugly, even the followers of those who have the biggest voices of all and make sure they are heard. I'm going to be open and forward about this, how I typically am unless I am not posting at all.
The problem is that I hear mostly the bad and it becomes a shit storm here, in the game, and what bothered me the most was also on various chat platforms where two pompous enemies (sometimes even FRENAMIES WTF? ARE YOU FRIENDS OR ENEMIES?? DECIDE??) would msg me about the other and try to stir drama. Then you come here tag teaming about certain things, which is your right to do so..sure. When one person posts, I wonder who it will be next to do a pal-follow up post for support, who will speak up against the first, then I place little bets in my head which person from TEAM1 is going to insult TEAM2 speaker - hehhhhh sometimes I win and sometimes I lose damnit! But the teams are always the same. Why do I mention this? Figure it out as a team maybe? *yawn*.
I'll note that one thing I didn't care much for concerning older interviews: it was only the elite being interviewed IMO. That IS NOT what these interviews here and now are about for me or the time I chose to invest. Instead they are more geared toward the current player base and current activity on MUME(at least they were at the time interviewed since they were all started last year).
I'm not well liked and I'm giving zero there about it these days clearly. Often I put myself in the fire all by myself though to re-route the dickbags from attacking one player and lead them to me. Some of you are so predictable you jump right in and lose complete focus who you were just abusing the minute before I opened my mouth, heh. So I feel I still win in the end and that other person gets some lil bit of peace. One thing I will mention though is I've constantly tried to get information out to you guys through various means because I believe/agree from a mortal stand point that the 'how' 'why' 'why not' 'when' should come out somehow more to mortals (and ask anyone who really has to deal with me in Valinor, I think you would hear my focus is always concerning pk - that's why I am here on MUME, so that is what I focus on there too). I tend to ask the same standard set of questions to start, and I know from experience they will steer in a direction unknown, and questions branch off from those responses. I usually have a few personal questions or if someone has put someone on the pedestal to be interviewed (which is the next one for example), I have asked if there was anything specific I should ask and I think I would always do that if it was an interview being requested for someone else, because it helps if I don't know the person for that branch to lead one way or another from the main tree, ok?
Then I look at situations like this on RR and have found myself excited to get that light shining on whoever I interviewed, but noticed this time with Ert's that I found myself feeling down for whatever may come - yeah, surprise? I have feelings sometimes! I've seen enough of particular comments on logs and at first I thought it was playful. In the back of my head I think I expected a few individuals to try to tear the whole thing apart in front of me and it would lead to the same group arguing. My problem is I try to diffuse it. I'm no longer putting myself into the fire or getting between you. I lost my voice maybe with all the 'break it up, break it up ladies - you're all beautiful'.
I look at why I didn't jump to secure an interview with Rogon/Jahara (and I really wanted an A+ there to be honest like Dain or Waba) and the reason is simple I guess - I don't want people tearing them apart, raising the mob against them, etc. I threw J under the bus many times on Discord (although accidentally and never meant it that way) and some of those times I can't explain the regret, remorse and just sadness that filled me because people felt questions were being ignored, so 'I maybe did something' like put my foot out and push J forward to answer them 'officially'. I spent an hour a few different days apologising to him because he was attacked in such a nasty manner each time I tripped him, heh! We had a great lil idea still - cause J is like a rock, tough and wasn't upset about it. We were pondering getting approval to do some mini interviews every so often if we got approval to do so on a particular change/topic. My thoughts drifted back to J being attacked several times, and another concern is some specifics can't, shouldn't, and wont be stated. That should be obvious why that is, but it would upset people none the less and cause issues yet again. I disregarded that idea but I really felt it was needed when the shaman and bn scout changes came. Rogon deserves a solo re-interview (and yes some of those reasons I'd like to do that are selfish and biased, sure!) As does Axel for that matter. I feel both of the previous ones for Rogon and Axel were not long enough by far. Not going to lie..was going to be sneaky if I did a 3x-Valinor one to ask Rogon questions...hehhehehe!
I'll throw some more out there of the 'behind the scene' stuff - Asmodean, Carl, Elestir, Fain, and Torkild all were people that I got NUMEROUS requests for interviewing. I spoke to most of them about the both ideas of doing it myself (even though its awkward) and perhaps finding someone to do it on my behalf. YES - I would like to see them interviewed. YES - I would like someone else to do it as I grouped with all for a long time IMO and think I found someone to do them (if he is still willing). Those interviews would not get the best results by me being the interviewer.
I got two requests for Lewis, and I see Facelift mentioned he would like to see a player interviewed with vision impairment. I would enjoy doing that interview too, if he is willing. A 'special group interview' will take place and go up randomly too in lieu of the Valinor group one I wanted to do as the first group interview.
heh!!! I even mailed that dude Manwe for an interview because the requests for that one were AS MUCH as Rogon's re-interview request. Guess what? No response - I'm sure none of us expected differently but I'm also sure he's super busy these days - but the pompous mob will say he just doesnt care and boofuckinghoo, am I right?
Since I'm throwing some behind the scene stuff out there, I'll go right on ahead with some more, mmmkay? Dong was the topic on many narrates almost any time of the day when I did his interview on all three sides. People on puke side feared him or wanted to bring him down, darkies depended on him and looked up to him with lots of respect - called on him often for help, the Zaugurz should of been knocking him around like a fly but instead it was the opposite, and ofc there would have been no one else I would want to interview first other than him - so yup - guilty for being biased too, oh well? Facelift made a quick comeback and had almost the whole community in an uproar within days, either in his defense about anything and everything or against him in every way - either way it was another huge impact upon the players on all sides. Ert deserved an interview back in the day and a 2nd interview all these years later - I don't need to justify it either - he's a fucking legend - EOD. Don't like it? Don't read it!
I'll mention now that my first comment was to Torkild (obv) and my second one was to Brundeor (I think there was confusion who it was directed to). My panties were in a bunch because of his comment regarding me leading with the questions and how I should be more personal - which I think I have been as much as I can based off their responses and where I can go from there. I will also mention I give everyone an opportunity when it comes to editing/review before I put it up, and I allow them to remove anything they have 2nd thoughts about or maybe it is too personal etc. That is up to them and I won't disrespect them and not give them that chance.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: I think you all are little gems, each a different cut/shape/sparkle, ok? Best way I can state it. Those that are constantly displeased with the interviews and starting a mob of followers in tow voicing the same thing almost in the same tone/manner, well just know this - no one said you HAVE TO read them.
In response to all the posts on RR currently with requests: I would be happy to do them all, we just will have to post them more frequently: maybe every two weeks? What do you all think of that?
So let us do it this way: if Asmodean, Carl, Torkild, Elestir, Khazdul, Lewis, Breaux, Nazgum are around still and interested in doing an interview, please email me: email@example.com. I don't think Razoor plays, but him also if so and willing. Let me know if I missed anyone! I'm also interested greatly in interviewing Dracol, One, Zud and Iminye (mmhmm, that's right and yes he is still banned) - so if this group too could email me if interested, that would be so lovely.
Once I know they have accepted (or re-accepted for those I asked late last year), I will post back here so the community knows and open a time period you can email me questions for that player (DOES THAT WORK FOR YOU BRUDENOR, SIR?). That way they don't seem biased and some I do not know enough to ask 'the good stuff'. The source/player behind the questions asked remain anonymous - if you chose to tell them it was your question later feel free.
PS - Torkild: the fact that you think I didn't already ask Telessar for an interview shocks me to my very core. The problem is he isn't playing? Let it be known I even dangled the interview in front of him in a lil cute attempt to get him to play.
Hopefully this clears up the bickering going on or any miscommunication - and more importantly you all feel great and apart of the ER community. Have a FABULOUS weekend!